Date: 20 Oct 2008
Time: 2:26 am

Why am i not surprised feeling this way? Tears just wouldnt stop flowing down from my eyes.. First of all,quarreling with A is just so upsetting..and damn,it hurts me damn badly&for the first,he's being like that..its just stupid&childish. ): i guess all good things come to an end? I really believe that..after years of fun,its time&now we end up from so damn close to strangers! How great is that bro?i never knew we could fight till this bad..but when i get over this shit,im sure u'll be out of my mind for good. &there on,i can put on a great smile.

The second thing is sending that last msg to J,made me more upset..seriously,everything did not went my way today..its so opposite! I guess after all,im too tired of all the attentions im giving you or vice versa! And in the end,i'l be the one hanging or avoiding or better yet ignoring you which i dont want it to happen..im too tired of all this. Life's tough! J,we'l just paint those wonderful memories on the wall&there we'l end..its better that way.it'l definitely hurt at first but thats the way it is..

Third thing is that answering ur call was another mistake..we talked&in the end,our convo went from bad to worst..bringing back those memories we had for each other was bad! U said 'i played with yr heart&yr mind' that made me pretty upset too. Perhaps i just couldnt take to many at a time..im sorry,i dont miss you neither do i want to miss you! Im too afraid. I really am. Sigh!

The fourth thing that made me damn upset was mummy left to hongkong yesterday..its 2am&im blogging while missing mummy..listening to the songs u bought for me made me cry.i miss you mum..i really do! I never knew so many things could happen especially on the day u left to hk itself.i couldnt hold myself up anymore..im too weak! I miss you tons already mum..its just hard.hope hk is treating u alright. Love you mi.

&so the last thing that is making me cry now is daddy..i miss you,dad! U left me a year plus&for the first time,im feeling really weak..i never knew life could be this hard for me. Especially now,dad! Tell me what to do&i miss youu. )': now that you're gone,i still dream about the days u were here with me,daddy. My day seems so low&i hope i could bring ur smile in my heart..i really want you to come back home but its just impossible! Theres no easy way,it gets harder each day. I remember those words&i finally understand.Sighh!Im really lost. Ily&imy,daddy. ): Yours Truly,Sharon. 0have left cookies for me