S H A R O N

Date: 31 May 2008
Time: 7:57 pm

im posting because serene wants me to..

im having so much fun..im having a great weekend.its so relaxing! (: im posting because serene wants me to..so i went tuition today&surprisingly,i received a text msg from the ex-bf! very surprising&this leave me hanging..im like on the phone with yuree now and she's talking to her cousin&im talking to her cousin too..we're all on loudspeaker.lol. i cant wait to go kk actually. =D some people has been calling me&some of them,i really dont want to talk to,cos im tired of them.i think for those people who called&i did not answer or i called you late,means i dont feel like talking actually..because i dont care&i cant be bothered.sorry people. (:

i dreamt of some people whom im not suppose to. =/ craps! yuree knows all. alrighto,i shall go down&eat my dinner.hehe! seeyous. xoxo. &oh,to the bitch,fcukyou seriously!

Lalalove,Sharon.

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Date: 29 May 2008
Time: 9:34 pm

im too lazy to blogg.

im feeling oh so lazyyy now..so im not gonna post a long one..i had fun in tuition (: &im allowed to go for the kk trip that school's organising. =D momma's being really nice&yes,im allowed to go.which made my day..public holiday this saturday so i have the whole weekend to relax.ohh,my mum's flight changed to the 10th. (: im so gladd. oh yes,i saw the bitch today with her bestfriend. zomg! eyesore muchh. =D right merciana? hehe..

so thats pretty much about it..ohhh,hasbullaaahhhhhh suck big time. =p i dunno when are we gonna talk again.he's being an ass now. but imy,mr.hasbullah;girlfrienddd. =D

Lalalovee,Sharon.

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Date: 27 May 2008
Time: 9:46 pm

im not afraid of you;instead you better watch your mouth.

so today's practise was slightly a lil bit better than yesterday's.now i understand why theres not much form 3 girls coming to practise..ohh let me tell you what i've found out. (:

so theres this particular girl in form 3,no im not gonna put names,or maybe you people will find out for yourself because i think you all will know who she is eventually.she's one of the most kurang ajar kid i've ever known..last year,i did NOT bully her or anything BUT her wonderful bestfriend called a teacher and told the teacher that i bullied her..they're only in form 2's back then..i din even touch her a single bit,and she made a complain saying i bully her?wow!so i didnt care much okae!she's just a kid BUT she told her friend she wanna slap me or beat me up.HAHA! i am so scared.all this happened last year.she never came&find me..instead she was being her timid self.i walked past her&she didnt even dare to look at me..so i thot hey,at least she doesnt create any problems&all.so i've forgotten bout it..

during golden jubilee run,i marked her attendance..she told me to mark her's&her friends..this was during april this year.she didnt make any faces to me but she gave me her so called innocent face&all..so i was thinking,hey,she's ok now&all..by all her actions,i thot she changed and all..so i din bother much about her&her bestfriends.i really dont.but now its coming to sports day,i hardly see any of them come to the meeting or practises.guess what i've found out.ohh,they dont wanna see my face so they dont come! wow..intresting! this type of people is just stupid.pure stupid.& i think she asked her friends not to go&all.they're in division B. oh girls,i dont need you girls anyway..its your lost too!

but here,i dont wish to bring this up to mrs.shafee or ms.luisa,because of you not liking me or my face!im not gonna bring this up.but hey,watch your mouth okae?you dont like my face,then DONT come,because i dont like your face too! stupid small eyes! BUT you dont go around&tell people not to come,because if i find out from anyone saying that its you who asked them not to come,you'll face me!you better watch out bitch.i didnt slapped you last year its because i dont wish to touch any dirty face! watch out,starting today,you'll see how many people will start calling you names. your only in form 3,you think im scared?i dont wish to cause anymore troubles because its my last year in school. (: your friends tell me things..watch out bitch! i cant tolerate all this anymore..you better STOP whatever your doing now..

urghh,i guess some of you might even know who im talking about.im not surprise because she's a bitch and everyone knows. (: chiens thinks your a dirty girl. haha! those of you who dont know,perhaps you could guess..im sure you guys will find out sooner or later. (: alrighto,i'll stop now.seeyous.

Lalalovee,Sharon.

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Date: 26 May 2008
Time: 9:45 pm

feels like home once again. (:

oh man,finally home feels like homee to me now.im so glad this feeling came back and it pretty much put a big smile on my face..i really hope nothing bad will happen anymore..mummy's home&im so happy that she's back..its just like my bestfriend is back..i could talk&share everything with her and whatever she says or even ask,i'll just listen&be the good girl..oh man,i love mummy so so muchh.hehe!she ask me go shower,i listen..ask me take this,take that i dont answer back,just do as she say..feels good to have a mummy back home.but she's leaving this coming monday again.sigh!im gonna miss her loads.oh wells,at least i have my mummy/bestfriend for a week&not forgetting my eldest bro..sure do miss him!hehe..he's so funny&yes,i love you both so so much.

finally i get to go shopping with mummy,ask her pick me up&all..oh man,i miss all those!im just too happy (: so today went to padang kebajikan..momma send me there&theres hardly danson members.so disappointing.i bet mrs.shafee will be so mad tomoro..hais!i never knew being a captain could be so hard..so many responsibilities.headache ar! i gotta stay back tomoro to do the english thing that mrs.manik wants me to do,i gotta collect the pictures money from the whole english club members&i have to walk around the school tomoro to ask them come for the last track event practices.urghh.so many things to do. ):

ohhh,hasbullah has been a great dude. (; we had our little chit chats and yes..i had fun with him.i'll see him tomoros again&his lausy phone screen is so screwed up!i cant even read a thing.loserr.anyhoos,thats pretty much about it. i had a blast. ohhhh;happy bday aziim aka koko! (: hope you had a blast on your bday. =D

ATTN:ALL DANSON HOUSE MEMBERS MUST COME TOMORROW FOR THE FIELD/TRACK EVENTS! ESPECIALLY TRACKS! NO EXCUSES. ITS A MUST! PLEASE GIVE ME A BREAK! IM NOT ASKING MUCH BUT PLEASE MAKE ITTT.

Lalalovee,Sharon.

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Date: 24 May 2008
Time: 10:57 pm

blogger is being a bitch.

i typed out pretty much everything just now but blogger was being a bitch & i lost the whole thing.so being the lazy me,i decided to not update anything for today except the fact that momma's coming back tomoro for just a week. and yes,screw blogger! i hate youu. urghh! alot of things happened today and i actually typed out all. eeeee. i am so annoyed now. pffts! wtf man.

& here's to silly. You'll always be a part of me.I'm part of you indefinitely.Boy, don't you know you can't escape me.Ooh darling,'cause you'll always be my baby.And we'll linger on.Time can't erase a feeling this strong.No way you're never gonna shake me.Ooh darling,'cause you'll always be my baby. =D im glad to have you now. lovee.

thats pretty much it..i hate blogger. pffts!

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Date: 23 May 2008
Time: 2:18 am

oh darling;you'll always be my baby.

omg.i cant sleep. ): usually i'll be studying and like memorising notes.and i finished my exam and im too lazy to even open my book.results will be out soon&i have no idea how i did.i think i did quite bad due to all the last minute studying.well not really a last minute studying thing,its just that some of the questions that came out,i dont rele know..and the ones that i memorised,did NOT came out.and heck,i actually stay all night up just to memorize my geo&hist.AND,i think i screwed both the papers.damn it!how mad and upset can i be..but nyeh,exams over.i SERIOUSLY need a break. (: oh oh;that picture on the top,i took it beginning of this year,i think.i used bry's phone..and thats like his original pose,so i followed it.HAHA.that picture of mine is still his screen saver. =D hehe. silly you.

and so,i went out today..with bry,yuree,rich&mimi.i havent been out since i dunno when.i mean out as in chill with friends for hours.i never actually did in a long time until today. (: i had fun.but it was just for a little while.cos i went home early.i dont really like staying in gdg for like a long long time..i get bored of it easily.but with friends like yuree&bryant,i wont be bored.we'll talk all night long. im afraid of results now..i think i screw most of my papers.oh no!im sooo worried bout it.ok,i shudnt be talking bout exams/results and all right now..i should like take my mind off everything. i cant sleep.been thinking alot.bout things.i think thats the reason of why i cant sleep. ): upset and all.i dont know.shits!

i miss having someone by my side..i miss msging people who im comfortable with.i miss going out with someone i love.i miss having someone who loves me alot.&&i think i'll fall in love soon. oh;i know that you'll be right back,you'll always be apart of me..oh darling,you'll always be my baby. i hate saying this,but i miss you alot. sigh! i know that someday i'll eventually forget bout you.&i cant wait for that day to happen. (:

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Date: 21 May 2008
Time: 8:31 pm

what a shock?

heys..

i shouldnt be blogging actually cos my sister wants the notebook back. sniffs! i dont have my own pc or a notebook to even blog.i have to like secretly used it at times..im not suppose to be blogging actually because i still have my last paper tomoro..its d-maths 1.oh myyy! i went tuition just now and yea..it helped a bit.after blogging;i'll go shower and start practising my maths without my calculator.nowadays im so used to using calculator,i couldnt add simple digits without my calculator.thats how bad i am.rely to much on my little calculator. ): i hope i wont have a hard time doing my last paper tomoros.

was at kiulap huaho just now right after my tuition while waiting for my aunt to come pick me up..so me and yuree decided to go for some window shopping.bra's;dress;shoes;bags and all..dang!theres so many things i wanna buy..haha!so the boys went to see their normal stuffs.t-shirts&guitars!as usual.we went off..and so we lost em! bry miscall me and i couldnt find him anywhere and so me and yuree went all the way down to the grocery area and we saw our 2 boys coming in from the main entrance..guess what we did?we ran away from them..but they caught us anyways.hehe! i was running away from bry and suddenly he's like in front of me..scare the hell outta me! and yea,i hugged him.cos i was scared&shocked at the same time.

and after that,my aunt arrived and off i went..leaving bry all alone. ): sorry bestfriend. oh yes;im still stinky cos i havent showered since 12ish pm? eeee...hehe! and yea,my sis told me something bout my brother saying he has to go for an operation because theres like 4cm tumour in his stomach and its a must to do the operation.my reaction was 'oh;okay..what to do ah?' i did not cry nor did i laugh.its just this feeling that i dont know how to say..oh tumour;im not surprised.this type of feeling.eversince my dad got diagnosed;i cried and now,im left with no more tears. hmm. what a news! very disappointed but they're coming back this sunday. i miss mummy.

so thats pretty much about it..im off to shower and do revision after that! im feeling so tired.my eyes is like half open. =.= craps!!

study;study;study!

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Date: 16 May 2008
Time: 12:18 pm

better now?

im back for a little while..im so tired.just finish studying..im still doing my examss..June papers were so hardd. sniffs. alrighto,i need to take my lunch now. seeyous.

oh;im still as sick as beforeee..crap!

study;study;study!

Lalalovee,Sharon.

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Date: 12 May 2008
Time: 7:58 pm

unconsciously broken..

sometimes i have to ask them to let me in..not to tear me apart and leave me all alone.you guys are gone in my heart..i thought i could take you guys back in, in my heart,but the way you all treat me doesnt even show you care and love me..you noe what your showing me? you hate me..like so much.when you see me,you'll most prolly scold me and all.sometimes i wish i could be every little thing you all wanted.but i guess i cant. i give up. for once,you guys are the closest to me,and now look,you guys are really distant. i just dont want to miss you all anymore.

im sick and i dont think you all care. hurts me real bad. i thot all this 'hate' thing would end,but it seems like it hasnt ended yet. i hate all of you. ALL. tempremental disorder of moods that lead me to insanity.you people cut me open and i bleed bleed bleed.

i dont think you all understand,everythings broken..i dont want to go ~~home.~~ when im ~~home~~ im always hiding in my ~~room.~~ all those feelings. im too tired.

i'll be on hiatus till i dunno when?maybe when im in my friends place or thru phone?idk. because i dont have anything at ~~home.~~ they hide their things from me. oh great! im a complete stranger to them now.

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Date: 10 May 2008
Time: 11:28 am

dont tell me your sorry when you're not..

At times like this i feel like giving up every single thing im facing..you dont understand what im facing.i noe its all my fault,BUT i did not blame anyone for this is my fault.at this age,i noe im rebellious and yes,untrustworthy.i've lose all the trust you had for me..i blame myself for that.its not easy to regain your trust back in me..i give up,i dont want to do anything,just to please you or make you happy bcos i noe its all useless.i did tried my best,but you people just dont see it.im too tired living a life which is so cold&meaningless..i seriously dont give a damn about what you think of me now,because i noe its all useless and no,i dont bother at all.

you people tend to choose to NOT understand me at times,i accept it. TRY put youself in my shoe.you'll noe exactly what im going thru and how pain i feel. im sure when you all read this,you guys either feel disappointed or even angry.but i dont care.come call me or msg me and scold me,because for now,i dont have any tears for you all. i wont say sorry for saying all this because i noe my sorry mean nothing to you people and no,i dont wish to make anymore promises to you people..if i've made any promises lately,oh pls..take my promises away,because i dont want to make anymore promises! for now,my tears are dry.my heart can hold on to everything & im standing up for myself.

i dont need you,you&you to tell me what to do next because i dont care.go on be mad or cry because i've turned out this way.not the way you wanted..and hey,i know i mean nothing to you people,i repeat NOTHING. i dont wish to mean anything to you people also..cos i gave up on you people.i wont tell you anything from now on. go on and see. thats pretty much about it.

im over everything. (:

Lalalovee,Sharon.

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Date: 2 May 2008
Time: 1:22 pm

congrats;biatch.

Way to go bitch,you won!you made me cry in school today..wait,not only me,even my buddy cried.yes,you won.go on tell the whole world.congrats,you won. You made my life miserable.

For the first time,i feel so fucked up! Thanks to you.

Lalalove,Sharon.

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