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Date: 31 Jan 2008
Time: 3:01 pm

gym;oh gym..

hey peeps! hows everyone doing? i must say my week had been a hectic one..its like woah man! super tiring..homeworks,class test,decisions to make,getting hurt,letting go..my goodness! super emo for like the past 2 weeks? haha..but im all good now. been thru the hardest part and yes,its time to start revision too. CNY wouldnt be a blast for me this year.. ): i dunno why,but i just dont have the mood for CNY. how crappy can my mood be? haha..so anyways,i've started gym-ing with koko ronald.hehe! whose gonna lose weight first? ;p hehe..skipping dinner and so forth. but its super super fun. (; i like..and oh;ima have to quit bball due to my time are all booked by tuitions. i dont have time to play or anything..and i even have tuition on a saturday! i dislike going tuition on saturdays! but oh wells,its form 5.what can i do right?

BUT i want bball..i dont wanna quit bball. uh! =/ i'll try change my tuition time for bball.hee~i cannot NOT play bball..on saturday i cannot play,due to malay tuiton..and if i cannot play on wednesday too,then it'll be crap.NO,i must change my tuition time (; its a mustttt. besides bball,i dont think i would have time to go limteh,shopping and everything. ):but i'll find some time for GYM too.. (; hehe.. well,its time to work hard after all the playings.argh;1st assessment test will be on the 1st of March.i have exactly one month to prepare for the test. and after test,i need to study for June.im taking June this year..im afraid tho! like so scared of everything. alrights.i want to take my rest and get ready for gym laterr. seeyousss!

Lalalovee,Sharon.

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Date: 24 Jan 2008
Time: 12:24 am

PMS mood.

i hate PMS! its like making yur whole day a gloomy day and at this time,people will come and annoy you somehow..and yes,today..few people annoyed me..i kept quiet,somehow..i dont wanna talk,its bcos i dont want to make things worst.and its just somehow annoying lar..especially when yur msging a friend,and he annoys you rele badly thru his msges..and yadda yadda yadda. im not in a mood for ANYTHING lately..oh,LADY IN RED,pls pls go away fast and i dont want any crams or anything bad to happen to! uhhh.

1st assessment test coming up..on the 1st of March! so fast..and febuary is near,which means tuition time! i'll be really really busy starting febuary..no time for anything at all. my saturdays are packed too! and thank God,i do have time for YF.but no more bball in the afternoon. ): cos of malay tuition..uh! super super annoying..i dont like having tuition on saturdays..cos its suppose to be my rest day..i cannot imagine how busy i'll be when tuition starts. =/ dang man! and NO,im not looking forward to chinese new year at all..pffts!

so anyways,readers..i wont be blogging after today..its bcos my koko will be back and i doubt he'll lend his laptop to me too..so i wont be blogging again until i get my CPU back,which is still not done..cos umm,its an old and lausy one..its hard to find its motherboard and all..can actually throw it away. (; so i dont know when i'll be back..keep checking if you guys wanna noe! wont be online starting today too..hmm! i wont be that active in blog,friendster and facebook anymore.its time for NERDING. i need to do well in my form 5. (; aights,im off for now..seeyous!

Lalalovee,Sharon.

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Date: 22 Jan 2008
Time: 11:18 pm

mix feelings..

im disappointed in you..in how the way you handle things! i dont give no care about you being all emotional and all..its yur fault and you made me look like a fool just now..shits! im effing tired from everything and this is what i get. wow! anyways,i really need to get that off my chest somehow! its like too much..really! i cannot handle things that well lately,its bcos like its too much! really..leave me alone..i cannot take so many things at a time! i really wanna hide myself somewhere that no one will actually find me..its just so frustrating!

so,the girls made cheesecake for both me and my sister..umm,for encouragement,was it? im not sure..but the cake was deeeee-liiii-ciousss! (; hehe..thanx especially to yinglin and of course the rest of the girls..lys,mayanne,jane and steph. yes,these people who made me feel so much better and its their first time doing it. (; very touched. =D thanx girls..i love you girls many many..

bball was tiring,and was abit off during bball cos of many thinkings! quite crappy tho.din rele concentrate and was energy-less! Stephen said i need more energy and chins up (; will do it next week yes? sorry. so i went to visit lydia just now in the hospital..she did some operation and she's fine now..after that, went to see my 2nd uncle.he's not doing fine..hmm! =/ and after that,went to youme restaurant..i drank only,then after a while i went home due to some reasons. (; just didnt have the mood to laugh and talk..i just need sometime alone! thats all i need for the moment..maybe just today,im feeling like shit.

went to leadership training last night..it was GOOD.very helpful..talking bout 'criticism' uh! hard mann..really hard! when you wanna step up as a leader,you gotta be ready for criticism.hmm! i prolly am ready for that..been thru it too.and now i am facing it AGAIN. (; but this time,i know what to do..i dont have to struggle so much..im ready! bring it on. im not afraid of you,you you! oh yah,i saw this kurang ajar kid just now while playing bball..she was like saying something which was really rude..and she's so short and FAT. (; and black. uh! she's very very annoying..so kurang ajar,i tell you! sure one day,kena tampar one lor..actually she kena already la by my friend. HAHA! and then she cry and call her sister and brother and many many. kampung ayer kids! typical them! and this kids are NOT from st.andrew school. =D

and guess whose birthday it is today? its my beloved daddy birthday (; although yur not here daddy..im still moving on with my life.and i noe yur doing good up there..i must say i miss you alot.im in a mess..and i dont rele noe how to deal with it just yet..but i know He will help me thru..but somehow daddy,its different without you. ): alot happened. ALOT. come back and visit me just once?i want to see you and talk to you..and tell you everything. ): pffts. oh wells, HAPPY BDAY DADDY,i love you..always!

and guess what did i do when i come back from youme restaurant?

yes,i did this..up to my room and sit in a corner and yea! doing that! serious..im TIRED. i wanna sleep now. and i think this is one of the longest post.sorry for the emo-ness.im just not myself lately. LEAVE me ALONE just for TODAY. (; i do HOPE tomoro will be a better day for me..cos im really tired of what people say and do. shits! YOU,I HATE! go! far far away from me.

Lalalovee,Sharon.

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Date: 21 Jan 2008
Time: 3:32 pm

love today...

and i remember that was the face expression you gave,when i kissed you.. i miss you alot. ):

its never easy to let you go..i miss you like so much.and whatever im doing now,is just not right.i miss you,and i even talk about you in school.those memories,when you call and we laugh talking to each other and saying silly stuffs to each other.and i remember saying how i love yur laughs?and when yu laugh,it just make yu sound and look adorable somehow! (; im glad we can still be friends..and that'll never change. (;

so anyways,im super super tired todayy..came to school,and raymond chin gave me big big smile. yes,im okays brother..and my bestfriend came and gave me a big big big huggg. we shud take picture soon (; hehehe..i just realise we dont have any pictures together. hehe! love you bestfriend. and mummy will be back soon. (; cant wait to see her.cos alot of things not done! so many. school fees,tuition fees and so on. all need to be done! by end of this month. craps.

P/S: i miss you. and i miss mummy! (; loveyu always.

Lalalovee,Sharon.

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Date: 20 Jan 2008
Time: 11:16 pm

huggles..

why issit that when you let go someone,and somehow you just want him back so badly.but its hard in a sense you'll hurt someone to.i dont know how i feel? its sorta numb. like really. craps! and then,when yu cheat once,and others will always think yur a liar,a cheater..or yur the cause that my daughter or son is like that.and its like when yu din organise anything but in the end,they'll say its yu.maybe the face somehow says 'yea,im the bad one..blame me' really!

i wont be free tomoro..and i miss my bestfriend so much! ): you noe who you are..i dont have much to say for now.i dont feel that good too. goodnights!

Lalalovee,Sharon.

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Date:
Time: 1:43 am

He did make a way..

after such a long day,i finally get to laugh and smile like this..i mean after hearing good news.im relieved. like totally. God did make a way for me..thanx for all your prayers.. (; and i finally get to realise certain things too..click on the song in my blog..wait a little while for it to upload. this song has kept me going on and not giving up..thanx to KKD. he introduced this song to me..i mean i never get to understand the lyrics until last night? when i know theres like no hope,and this song just tell me that God will make a way..no matter how or what,He will make a way where there seems to be nowhere..im not giving up (;

i know things will turn out just fine and no matter how hard it is,i must still grow through this..and i noe im not alone..so people out there,if you rele feel like giving up,turn to Jesus and ask him what He wants you to do,and what is His plan? pray for strength and pray that He will guide you through..to Him,all things are possible.remember that! this past few days,i've learned alot..He opened my eyes and i finally got to understand certain things..it takes time. i've been thru once and now its like the second time..im still moving on. i really am.

so anyways,YF was good.and miss Yap Chai Sing, *claps* you're a really funny person i must say and also cute la..with yur 2 peace sign beside yur cheeks there (; and i know you read my blog,my daily reader..so im gonna talk about you. (; eh,next week ar,treasure hunt ok? =D you drive and i make you laugh again ok? i no bully you dy,cos if i go on bullying you,im sure mister David Chong will come after me.. *claps* okays? hehe..ok,enough of you here..i'll move on to the next topic..

ohhh,im really tired..my eyes wanna close liau.i should get some sleep..thanx for cheering me up,and being there for me thru all my downs for the past few days..and making me laugh and smile. you guys noe who you are. (; thanx so muchh..alrights,GOODNIGHT.

Lalalovee,Sharon.

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Date: 19 Jan 2008
Time: 12:06 pm

God will make a way..

i woke up today with a smile..and i tell myself,everything will be fine (; and i know im not alone..someone will always be there for me..beside me! no matter how dark it is,i know He will be there for me..and im not alone.i must remember that,im not alone..im sure everything will be just fine..i always tell myself God will make a way! no matter what it is,He will make a way where there seems to be nowhere. (; i've been listening to that song and its like i get to understand things..i know He will make a way for me and my family.

i must say thanx to Jo,KKD and UC for last night..im not sure hows my sister doing..been keeping herself quiet..hmm! anyways,today a day off for me..i'll be back to school on monday..just needed time to face friends in school..dont wish to cry there..and all..and to ms.adeline liew,i love you! thanx for being there for me thru my hard times,and i noe theres more to come..i'll keep myself strong and go thru all this. (; dont worry so much about me also yah? thanx sister..so what i can do now,is find a quiet place and pray and ask God whats next?and whats His plan? or at least give me some hints. (; i rele dont know..but i guess i have to be ready to face whats gonna happen lor.

Life is full of ups & downs..hmm,thats all i could say then. smile and the world will smile with you..(; i noe im not alone.and yes,continue to pray for my family..for strenghth! (;

Lalalovee,Sharon.

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Date: 18 Jan 2008
Time: 12:19 pm

bad news..

it hurts horribly..deep inside,it does! i just dont want people to see me cry at times..so i tend to smile and laugh with them..but once they step away,tears starts to fall..im too tired.im just gonna cry in school if i go..i dont even think i could actually concentrate at this moment..no one understands! but at times like this,i really want to serve the Lord.i just want to sing out to Him and let Him noe how i feel and everything..im keeping myself strong and im still praying hard..i need more strength..to me now,its sorta useless for me to go school and cry there..like they dont really understand.but in church its different somehow.i dunno how to say la..i'll take a leave tomoro..i need rest.like really. ):

i need to let it all out..cry it out!im sitting alone now in the living room asking God why this and why that..i dont understand.i really dont.i turn to God asking what He has in mind for me? whats the bigger picture?i rele dont know..when will i get an answer? ): craps! im really tired. not feeling well..i just want to sleep and not wake up! i dont want to worry about anything anymore. argh!

well,do pray for my eldest bro aights? yur prayer is very much appreciated. (;

Lalalovee,Sharon.

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Date:
Time: 11:24 am

deja vu?

i lost my bluetooth device..so i wont be able to upload some pictures..so heres a quick update on what have i done or what happened for the past few weeks..YF started,alot of new comers..Praise The Lord..baking was fun and funny and successful somehow! (; homeworks are piling up..and im looking forward for tuition.so starting next month,i wont have the time to play at all..been a good girl in school,really! haha.. (; started revising on my own..met a new angmoh name neil? or neel? i dunno how to spell..hehe,its KKD's friend..he's funny and lame at the same time too..guess its all from KKD. haha..so yesterday i went out with KKD & his angmoh friend neil..

went to empire,show him around..took some pics and just walk around. and off we went to kg.ayer..i tell you yesterday was my very first time stepping in kg.ayer..really! riding on the boat was fine,but stepping in and out of the boat was NO fun..its scary and no,i dont like it..hehe! yes,KKD calls me a princess jst bcos i've never been to such places. (; right~ i thot kg.ayer would be smelly.but nops it was okays! (; not bad lah..boleh tahan! i dont mind going to that place to visit again. and i tell you the kids there,dont say hi to chinese or malay people.they only say hi to angmoh's. so yea~ and then off we went to jingchew to have light food. and at night,did some sharing and prayers! i had fun. (;

the other day,i went to this quiet place on my own and i just sat there all alone..i really need some place where i could go everyday and just be alone..im facing alot,i mean alot of things! its just so disturbing..im afraid icouldnt go on anymore! i thought after all the hard times i've gone thru,and thats it..i thot i could just rest for a little while and have a little bit of fun..and pop! here comes another one..not a small problem! its a big one..and when you just want to sit and study,the bad things pop up yur mind and there you go..im disturbed by it! how i wish i was only 3yrs old? so that i wont have this much to think and worry about! everything is stupid..all i can do now is pray and ask the Lord to give me the strength to go thru this..im tired! very.

deja vu? seems like it..im going thru this ALL over again! pls pray for my eldest brother,roland.

Lalalovee,Sharon.

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Date: 12 Jan 2008
Time: 3:01 pm

baking..

so,im back for a little while..im not suppose to be blogging cos im suppose to help the girls to bake! (; yes.bake..i do know how to bake alright..haha! im just here to let yu readers out there,my cpu is not back yet..and yea,form 5 is like... i dunno what to say! busy busy busy! ): no time to rest at all..started revising! and im doing fine too (; i'll be back right after my cpu is back alrights? seeyou then..i'll go join the girls now! will update some other time. =D loveyuuu.

Lalalove,Sharon.

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