S H A R O N

Date: 22 Jan 2008
Time: 11:18 pm

mix feelings..

im disappointed in you..in how the way you handle things! i dont give no care about you being all emotional and all..its yur fault and you made me look like a fool just now..shits! im effing tired from everything and this is what i get. wow! anyways,i really need to get that off my chest somehow! its like too much..really! i cannot handle things that well lately,its bcos like its too much! really..leave me alone..i cannot take so many things at a time! i really wanna hide myself somewhere that no one will actually find me..its just so frustrating!

so,the girls made cheesecake for both me and my sister..umm,for encouragement,was it? im not sure..but the cake was deeeee-liiii-ciousss! (; hehe..thanx especially to yinglin and of course the rest of the girls..lys,mayanne,jane and steph. yes,these people who made me feel so much better and its their first time doing it. (; very touched. =D thanx girls..i love you girls many many..

bball was tiring,and was abit off during bball cos of many thinkings! quite crappy tho.din rele concentrate and was energy-less! Stephen said i need more energy and chins up (; will do it next week yes? sorry. so i went to visit lydia just now in the hospital..she did some operation and she's fine now..after that, went to see my 2nd uncle.he's not doing fine..hmm! =/ and after that,went to youme restaurant..i drank only,then after a while i went home due to some reasons. (; just didnt have the mood to laugh and talk..i just need sometime alone! thats all i need for the moment..maybe just today,im feeling like shit.

went to leadership training last night..it was GOOD.very helpful..talking bout 'criticism' uh! hard mann..really hard! when you wanna step up as a leader,you gotta be ready for criticism.hmm! i prolly am ready for that..been thru it too.and now i am facing it AGAIN. (; but this time,i know what to do..i dont have to struggle so much..im ready! bring it on. im not afraid of you,you you! oh yah,i saw this kurang ajar kid just now while playing bball..she was like saying something which was really rude..and she's so short and FAT. (; and black. uh! she's very very annoying..so kurang ajar,i tell you! sure one day,kena tampar one lor..actually she kena already la by my friend. HAHA! and then she cry and call her sister and brother and many many. kampung ayer kids! typical them! and this kids are NOT from st.andrew school. =D

and guess whose birthday it is today? its my beloved daddy birthday (; although yur not here daddy..im still moving on with my life.and i noe yur doing good up there..i must say i miss you alot.im in a mess..and i dont rele noe how to deal with it just yet..but i know He will help me thru..but somehow daddy,its different without you. ): alot happened. ALOT. come back and visit me just once?i want to see you and talk to you..and tell you everything. ): pffts. oh wells, HAPPY BDAY DADDY,i love you..always!

and guess what did i do when i come back from youme restaurant?

yes,i did this..up to my room and sit in a corner and yea! doing that! serious..im TIRED. i wanna sleep now. and i think this is one of the longest post.sorry for the emo-ness.im just not myself lately. LEAVE me ALONE just for TODAY. (; i do HOPE tomoro will be a better day for me..cos im really tired of what people say and do. shits! YOU,I HATE! go! far far away from me.

Lalalovee,Sharon.

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