Time: 3:25 am
IM TIRED TODAY! i wont be blogging till i get my cpu back,i guess! im using my bro's lappy again..and i couldnt belif everything is so chaotic now..im UPSET! GOODNIGHT! Lalalovee,Sharon. 0have left cookies for me
Time: 4:28 pm
it has been a while since i last update my blogg..well,theres definitely alot alot of things i wanna sharee but heck,i dont know where to start..haha! umm,i must say carolling was good. like so good. (; last minute decorating the tree is NOT good..cos when the carollers reached,im still not done..i must say thankyou to the LIEW'S familyy for helping me decorate my place and make it so christmassyy..hehe! i'll show you a picture of my christmas tree..well,just abit of it! my bro took it..i grabbed it from his blogg..& heck,my bro's photos areee soo LAWAAA! (; yes,i'll show youu.
nice right? (; and i got my voice back on that day itself..so im up for solo's.. (; i was shaking while singing my solo part in my housee..quite embarassing! haha..cos umm,its the first house and it was my very very first time and someone came to me and said im doing certain part myself and it was such a last minute thing.. ;D haha..but everything went well. carolling was FUN. i got chocolates for christmas..ALL chocolates! (; hehe.. carolling ended on the 24th..so on the 25th,its time for me to spend my christmas with my familyy..oh turkey turkey! i'll show yu a picture of mummy and the turkeyy ;D yummy yummy.
i had fun celebrating christmas with my familyy..dad,we miss you alot! but its okays,i noe yur happy to see all of us celebrating christmas at HOME! (; after dinner,opened my presentss..and at around 9ish,im off to bed. (; i was very very tired! =/ hehe..well,this year christmas was on the best.. alot of limteh's and i spent alot! funny stuffs happened like John and KKD thinks the 'har kao' taste like some toilet smell? haha.. funny funny.. anyways,MERRY BELATED CHRISTMAS PEEPS!
Lalalove,Sharon.
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Time: 3:47 am
I must say that i miss you alreadyy..i've yet to send out that msg but while i typed it;those tears just cant stop falling down..tell me what to do next? tell me that this is the right movee..I MISS YOU ALOT! hurts;and i never knew it could be this bad..i couldnt sleep! its friggin 3.31am..and im still awake;and thinking bout yu..and MISSING you! im not suppose to write it here,but heck..i couldnt help it! those memories;made me cry..and from now on;i'll be on my own..i miss you alott;i just dont know what else to say? pain..really pain! it seems like im losing everything..sunshine?i dont even think i have one now! ): seriously;why me? why now? shit..really shitty! ); i cant believe im doing this..why am i feeling this way anyway? i thot i was ready but it seems like im not! i've prayed for strength..but it seem like i just dont have enough..tell me whatever i do is right. will yu be my bestfriend? will yu still even talk to me when i send you that msg? alot is running in my mind.im scared to lose you,but i just have to! dont ask me why this time;cos i've pretty much explained it all to yu last 2weeks.. ): i cant smile no more;it seems like i just cant..i thot i could..but when i typed out that msg..it was like the hardest thing and i just couldnt press the send button..im afraid! pretty much it.. i'll send it when i wake up from my sleep.im forcing myself to bed..this is crazy;i know! and i never felt like this in my entire life..seriously! stupid;everything is jst stupid..I MISS YOU ALOT! I MISS YOU.. ): Lalalovee,Sharon. 0have left cookies for me
Time: 1:55 am
Christmassss! cant waitt for christmass..yes;i've received my christmas presents alreadyy..haha not all la (; im still waiting for morE! =D buy me a camera for christmas,and i'll love yu to death.. (; im looking forward for a umm,cameraaa dsc-t20 yah? oh santa;i noe yu heard me ;D so anyways,carolling practise wass cra-zeee arh! haha..its good;but very very tiring lorr..really man! so many songgss and my voice not back yet.. ): im praying very hard now so i'll have my proper voice on the 23rd..yes;im up for solo =D take turns lar..hee~hope i'll do good,quite pressure lorr..was talking to my bro about it..HAHA!
so carolling pracs ended at 10.30ishh..i had fun! and after that off we went to limtehh.. (; andrew drove! haha..not bad la his driving..haha! can drive liauu.. ;D limteh with my closee buddies,and we like chat till 12ish.. good time,good fellowship i must say (; i just realize today is the 22nd alreadyy and today will be the day i'll most probably end it with you..i gotta do things fast..i cannot drag this no more! im terribly sorry..i was being selfish..i did not think of you when i made that decision..i noe yur really confuse now..but sooner,yu'll noe this is for you..and here;i really want to say im sorry ): FOR EVERYTHING!
oh wells;i aint feeling good now..all this thoughts and everything are just bugging me! i couldnt take it anymoree..i'll put on a fake smile and pretend like nothing happened at all..this is me;im like that..i have always been like that..something upsets me,but i'll take it strong and put a fake smilee..uh! i had enough.. ): too much.
Lalalovee,Sharon.
0have left cookies for meTime: 3:09 pm
i shall not call you brother anymore..i shall not be close to you anymore..i dont want you to care for me anymore,and i really dont want anything! or else you'll say im getting attention from you or so on..or even desperate? hmm..so i guess starting from today,yu'll see a change in me..not that i'll change to be more rebel or anything..i'll just change in a way that i wont play around with you nor chat with you..i'll just act as if i dont really know you that well. maybe this few weeks,i've went too far..but hey,for the past few days,yu were not here..i definitely miss yur chatting and so on..but i guess im not suppose to miss all that! im making a move,and i really hope that this move will be the right one,yes;it definitely hurt me alot as i cant share anything with you anymore..yur the one that i actually trust somehow but all this just dont seem to work..its just hard in a way..and i just dont know how to explain! HERE,i would like to say 'sorry' cos i would not want to be that close to you anymore..its bcos i dont want you to misunderstand some stuffs..so from now onwards;there will be a change..and soon,yu'll realize this post is for you. GOODBYE for now. and i'll always be a sister to you..not the close one anymore.. 0have left cookies for me
Time: 1:18 am
yes,these boys are 7minutes of fame except ray..hrm,raymond is their umm,backup drummer..they all won in BTB,and they got best guitarist,drummer&bassist..=D
my bestfriendin church i suppose? yes;a christian boy who serves the Lord and is very talented.whats more is he's SINGLE..girls! he's HOT or i shud say a pretty boy (;
7minutes of fame! look HOT in their smarts.. (;
and another one..=DD
and one day yu'll see them on poster! wuahh..they're all good!
so,7minutes of fame! they're good..and when they start playing;its like OMG! yes,they're really really good hehe! so anyways,nothing much happened today uh? and oh,for some of my friends,im afraid yu cant tag in my cbox ah? cos umm,i've banned them..its because of that particular person..so im sorry if yu also kena bann! but i'll just look at my visitors hits! hehe,to know that my blog is not dead. (;
koko ronald not back yet because umm,something happened today..so he'll try to come back as early as he can tomoro (; i miss him dearly! and JANE is backk..we're going out tomoros! and and KKD will be back tomoro too..not sure what time tho! so yea~things are good now! im relying on Him,and yes,its all good. played scrabble twice just now and i lost ):
im feeling drowsyy now cos of the medicine! im still having my terrible fluu&coughhh! its oh so annoying,like seriouslyy! i want my voice backk..i need it for carolling too! i cant wait for tomoro,umm..going out with the youths againn (; and i cant wait for koko ronaldd to come home and also KKD and his familyyy! ;D and and i cant wait for CHRISTMASS!!
okays;i've written enough junk here..teehee! i'll go and sleep now! nightsss.
Lalalovee,Sharon.
p/s:Lu&Esther,thanx for all the help..(; yu guys are tha BOMB! loveyousss..xoxo
0have left cookies for meTime: 4:11 pm
Time: 1:15 am
Miss Adeline Liew,cheer up aights? i'll talk to yu like soon yah? (; my coffee was salty too just now..and it was more salty when i head home..yu understand ka? heheee..yu shud understand! so went to adeline place for a little while and Uc appeared..so off we went to aulait AGAIN. haha..we're already like the regular customer there..i think i go there 5times a week? hehe..its a good place with good coffee! and a place where i could actually talk to people properly. ;D
and oh;thanx for the pressie lyn! i left it at yur placee..teehee! sorry sorry..im chatting with gette now..i miss LAU BRIDGETTE! and koko ronald coming back laterrr ;D at around 5pm..yes yes;im looking forward for my presenttt & him also lah..i miss my brotherr too (; haha..so me,my sis&koko roland played scrabble just now and for the FIRST time,we completed the gameee...and SHARON wonnnn (; koko roland says 'KALOK' but hey,proves that i have a 'not bad' english lei (;
i might not know how to express my feelings but sooner i will..ima have to start reading and also start studying for o's! i hope there wont be any distractions next yearr..i feel the pressure already,and im hating form 5 already..im scared to face my future too! what if i fail? i mean all those what if's are running thru my mind and sometimes,i wish i could just stop the bloody time.. =/ call me crazee;but heck all this are running in my mind..im afraid!
whats more is when people just want trouble for no particular reason? seriously,all this are just too much..i could only turn to God,and ask Him what should i do next? and how am i gonna deal with this? relationships? studies? uhhh,im afraid of trusting people..this makes me wanna stay at home and just hide myself where no one could actually find me..theres alot in my mind..and i just cant solve it myself..i need You. yes;You..
oh wells,in the end i gotta listen to Him and ask Him to show me the right path..i must follow Him..and i'll go thru all this sorta crap with Him..ohhhhh,goodnights!
Lalaloveee,Sharon.
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Time: 2:27 pm
im pretty much laughing..after reading my cbox! haha..people can actually get more pissed than me..haha lu,thankyouus (; i mean that annonymous person is ... i shall not say anything about him/her.. i'll just leave it as it is..i think that person will come again tonight..HAHA! im just wondering who? at the mean time,i dont think i want to take my cbox dwn..i'll see what can that particular person do..oh,i can actually find out who that person is..i can trace my cbox,and find out..
so that particular person,if i really can find you..hey,i'll just let my buddies noe..especially my oh so wonderful Lulu.. (; yes,i will..im trying my best to ask yu to NOT tag anymore but why come back? i mean yur seriously not welcome..im asking yu properly! so pleasee dont come back alrights! if yu wanna come and visit my blog,just read and dont tag! that would actually help alot. (; thanx..
so seeyouus annonymous! (; if yu're really desperate to tag,then put yur name yah! THANKYOUUSS!! and oh to BRYANT LEONG&LU,thanx so much for everything..for having my back! (; loveeeyuuu peopleee.. im finding transport to go to lyn's placeee..ahhhh!! wheres everyone? HOME ALONEE~
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Lalalovee,Sharon.
0have left cookies for meTime: 1:51 am
today was awesome! i should say a family day..but too bad,koko ronald not here..oh koko ronald,i miss yu so muchh! jst 3more days brother..come back soon! i cant get things done..i mean i cant get to handle some stuffs too..i rather have you at home ko! ): so i went to excapade with mummy,eldest bro,sis,maid,aunt dorine&uncle albert..the food was awesome! (; and its all worth it..today excapade was like full man..like fish market..mmm! (; HAHA! and hey;about that whole annonymous thing?i shud ignoree it..i should!
and soon,im taking my cbox off..and move to wordpress! (; thanx Uc,for everything..and thanx bestfriend,for being there for me..all the time,i knw yu'll always be there.. ;DD and oh;after dinner we went to aulait for coffee..hehe! aunty dorine&mummy wanna try their coffee..and yeah,they said its ok..but i get to meet up with BC (; hehe..he's still the same..i think he lost weight? TEEHEE! and thanx UC for the coffee too..anyhoots,we played JENGA&SCRABBLE in aulait..hehe! everything was good.
i thot that annonymous thing could spoil my day,but noh! im turning to God and im praying for wisdom..ima have to act fast and get things over withh (; i miss people! i miss JANE,JOHN,KOKO RONALD,KKD,ERN,JIE CS,LYN,LYS,ESTHER,BESTFRIEND,WANTING and and manyyyyy moree.. ): and whats worst is,i miss dad..if he knew all this was going on,yu wud be dead by now..hrm!
so thats pretty much about today..i dont think im going church tomoro,due to some reasons..i need people to talk to..i need someone who could actually understand me..i need a good listener&adviser..and i need God very badly now..thats all for now! ;DD seeyous!
Lalaloveee,Sharon.
0have left cookies for meTime: 6:34 pm
i HATE people who just dont dare to put their name up.. (; well,come to think bout it..im in no wrong! i shouldnt get angry to such small problems..but hey annonymous,thanx for telling me my boyfriend's result..oh;actually i knew it earlier.. =D so you dont have to worry too! and what if this gets to my mum? mmm,i dunno actually..oh wells,i suggest dont try to act smart okaes? (; dont come back anymore,cos i dont welcome yu here in my blog..so i suggest GET LOST.. (; and thankyouu. AND oh;i was actually angry at first..but now,im not! (;
bee,why are yu mad at this umm annonymous person?its not worth getting mad or getting ol frustrated bout it..i was angry just now but now im not.. (; oh,bee..dont quarrel with yur sister too yah? this is nothing de la..dont be angry or anything! (; i know what to do next..and im gonna make my next move soon too..hmm,im alright! dont worry too..
i guess its time i should move to wordpress?where i could actually lock my blog with my password. (; so i'll know theres no more strangers reading my blog..my brother once said 'hey;yur blog is so open..of course people read la' (; HAHA! never knew so many people would actually read my blog? hmmm..i should not breakdown or give up too! i should stay strong and at times like this,i know He is with me..like what UC said its another test..ima have to face it! (;
and hey,i've promised KKD that when he comes back,he must still see me in one good piece..not like a zombie! (; so no worries,KKD..when yur back,i'll still be in good piece.. ;D and oh,i have to let 'you' go already..i know i wont get 'you' no moree..so chances are slim! and i dont wish to make people all frustrated about 'you' too! i feel bad whenever i think about 'you' so from now on,i think i shall stop thinking about 'you' ):
and another bigger case,i'll solve it out soon..ima have to talk to you,and get things over! i've pretty much made my decision and just be ready to listen okaes?yu've promised that yu'll respect my decision.. so;ima have to tell yu this soon yah?i noe im hurting Him at the moment..and i cannot go on hurting Him already..alrights,thats it for now! its time to let go...
Lalalovee,Sharon.
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Time: 1:09 am
In times like this,yu could just only look up and wish miracle could happen (; haha..thats what i'll always do when i dont get the things i want..haha i noe its quite impossible to have you..but i'll try my best to get you..oh miracle miracle miracle? oh santa;i want 'sexie' for christmas! yes,u people figure it out.. (;
so anyways,today went for carolling practise..it was not that good..haha! cos umm,just didnt have the mood too..and heck,my voice is like so bida at the moment,due to im still sick..having terrible flu and abit of coughing..hopefully by next week,i'll be all right and get my proper voice back (; mmm,went out for coffee with UC,J,A,J,A,sis..UC was so funny just now..haha! and we saw an accident at the highway somewhere near muara..woah,man;it was horrible. =/ haha..something that i dont wanna see..scary eyh!
so,about another thing..i should act fast and yu noe get over it..im trying and i noe i should. it hurts somehow..but i noe all this are the right moves..thanx for everything! it has been wonderful to me..and yu made up to me all the time,guess all that will end pretty much soon. goodbye;i shud say to you!
oh man;ima have to go thru all this again. it hurts somehow! ): nights peeps!
Lalalovee,Sharon.
0have left cookies for meTime: 2:37 pm
Time: 12:45 am
i had a wonderful birthday yesterday..no;its nothing big! my mummy brought me to capers for lunch and it was good! wasnt that good,but oh wells..i've been craving for capers and finally i get to eat something there! thanx mummy;yur tha bomb.. (; hehe..and wanted to go out with bestfriend&wanting but wanting's driver was busy..and i was sleeping actually..cos like umm,im not feeling well..went to dr.ding and gave me antibiotic and moree~yes;on my bday,i went and visit the doctor..;DD so KKD cancelled carolling practise last night cos he thought the weather will somehow be like last 2 night?it was horrible man..everywhere flood!
but my sister Jane somehow managed to make another plan..which is go for coffee..and the weather wasnt that good ): so i prayed and God answered my prayer mann..oh myy~the next 5minute,the rain like kinda stopped..and weather was all good man! PTL (; im really glad yu noe,i mean how God works in every single thing..and if the weather were to be like last 2nights,i couldnt even celebrate my 16th bday! haha..a small cup of coffee totally made my day (; i had fun in aulait..no;there werent any surprises! haha..was actually looking forward for one,but there was NONE. haha..silly me!
but,yu noe..eventho there werent any surprises,im still happy! celebrating with my brothers&sisters in Christ.. (; so carol practise will resume this coming thursday,and im going to someone's house for dinner laterr (; a brother of mine.. =D haha! alrights,im feeling really really drowsy after taking my medicine..oh my~nighty nights readers! (;
Lalalovee,Sharon.
0have left cookies for meTime: 1:58 am
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Time: 1:56 am
hmm..im addicted to coffee since i was at the age of 14? which was 2yrs ago..most of my friends think that coffee are just for adults or something like that..and i dont think thats true! bcos i love coffee and they taste oh so wonderful. ;D yes,do take me out for coffee..i really love em..i've been going out with friends for coffee lately! just a cup of coffee can brighten up my day (; if yu were to ask me 'eh,sharon..what yu wanna do on yur birthday?' im gonna tell yu 'lets just go grab a cup of coffee.' hehe! i dislike going to the mall lately,i dont know why..maybe im use to sitting down and just yu noe~chitchat and all that! (; theres this place call aulait i think..they have good coffee there and the best thing there is they write yur name on top of yur coffee! haha..the place there is good,the drinks are oh so good,the cakes there are nice! oh yessss,im going there again! NO FAIL.. ;D
forgive this picture,its kinda umm not nice cos 'someone' took this. ;p yu noe who you are! ;pp
nicee rioght? some of yu may think im 'sakai' yes,i am! i really am..cos its like my first time seeing all this..so forgive me for being such a 'sakai' ;D and look its the 10th today,and tomoro its gonna be my brithday! & not to forget its me and bee's 3rd monthsary..ily! (; i guess thats it for today..im off to bed! need to take my rest & im going gym like laterr? mmm..nighty nights!
Lalalovee,Sharon.
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Time: 1:11 am
i still dont understand~whats life? after such a long talk and all,i mean i understand in a way! but why must you talk to me like that?why must yu give me that attitude yu noe? yur not the man of the house or whatever
Time: 5:37 am
Im looking for better blogskins to replace my current one..but heck,i've been searching for better skins since 2am? and its now 5ish alreadyy..i totally gave up and decided that i should just change my profile and the song..so i did it! (; blogskins are bad..no more potentials one already! hmm..how i wish i could like make some skins..pffts! it just annoys me so much! i mean i've been searching for like more than 3hrs..and there is none! not even 1 nice one..uhh! annoying~annoying!
our membership cards! (; feels good to be a member at a place..im going there on my bday again cos theres 20% discount for birthdays! haha..i bought perfume and this thingy for the nose~haha! the perfume smell oh so good i tell yu~ my mummy thinks im crazy for buying perfumes..i have no space for new perfumes already..teehee! just txted my bro up,and i told him i want perfumess! (; hehe,lets hope philippines have better perfumes than brunei ones.. ;DD
went to coffeebean at around 11ish with UC and Mayanne..just needed to talk and stuffs like that~and got back around 2ish am just now! it was quite random..haha! and oh;i have my cpu back! haha..im using it now! thanx UC! like so muchhh..lets hope nothing will happen again.. =/ haha..im afraid cannot boot again..haha! mmm..in few hrs time,im gonna go out with my bestfriends and in the afternun off to bball and at around 6.30pm..off to bowling! (;
3more days to sharon's bday! (; hehe! im not looking forward for it..haha! cos like i've already made an advance party but the bestfriend said its very important cos umm its his bestfriend turning 16. ;DD im going out my bestfriend on the 11th..im not sure can i even go out or not! im like so sick now..having flu,headache and stupid stupid sorethroat! i hate sorethroat VERY much! it hurts so damn much! i think im gonna get fever soon.. ):
anyhoots,i shall go take my rest now! i need to wake up at 12pm laterr..and im feeling so drowsy! haha..alrighto,goodbyes! i miss someone! sniffs.
Lalalovee,Sharon.
Time: 4:10 pm
VBS ended! ): i miss those little kids in my group..especially nathan ;D he's oh so cuteee! and of course i have joshua to help me with those little kids..hehe! joshua was greatt ;D good partner.. and some funny stuffs he told me during camp! ;D i have pictures to post up but i cant..cos im not using my pc..im using my bro's lappy ): few more days to my birthday..its not gonna be big cos i made a party alreadyy..i think mummy will buy me a small cake on my birthday ey? im not suree..haha! cos like umm on the 2nd already blow cake.. ;D my bro is in the philippines now.. hope he's alright theree (; im sick now..i prayed to God that make me sick only after VBS..haha! cos few days ago,im not that ok..so i said alang alang make me sick after kids camp ah..cos i need to take care of the little kids..so here i am,waking up sneezing non stop! feeling abit dizzy and yea~ oh wells,im off for now! will blog umm maybe soon.. (; seeyous. Lalalovee,Sharon. 0have left cookies for me
Time: 11:54 pm
HEY READERS! (; im using my bro's lappy again..my computer is now with UC. (; he's gonna help me fix it.. and im sure i wont be bored during my hols..hehe! lyn will be going off to shanghai tomoro,gette left to the philippines just now,bestfriend will be leaving on the 12th to singapore,yinglin left a week ago and moree! ): mayanne too,she's going KL i think? not sure.. hmm! im gonna hit back to zunic gym after tomoro.. ;p im quite busy lately lerr.. im helping out in VBS..and tomoro will be the last day of VBS. ); gonna miss all those little kids..they're SO adorable,i tell you..i really have fun helping out the kids.. (; joshua is my partner in VBS (; he's a fun partner.. and the rest like john and vincent are the naughty ones. ;p keep bullying me! mmmm.. anyways,i had my 16th party on the 2nd and it was great..thanx for coming peeps! especially my church mates..u guys were great and thanx for all the presents..and to all the aunties and uncles,thanx so much for the angpow! it was ALOT (; hehe.. i wanna go somewhere..i dont wanna stay in brunei ): its so boring here! -.- anyhoots,i wanna go take my rest now! i gotta wake up ummm at 6am tomoro again for VBS. its gonna be the last day. ): alright then,i wont be blogging till like umm i get my computer back..which is like soon maybe? ;p and i cant wait for christmas and my birthday!! (; haha my birthday is on the 11th..to let yu all noe.. ;DD haha..i made an advance party.. alrightoo,i'll go now! seeyouuus.. ;p Lalalovee,Sharon. 0have left cookies for me